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Friday, February 17, 2017

I'm Sorry for the Confusion

   The covert harassment part of the targeting has been very confusing to me. I am deeply sorry if there are people whom I have unfairly named or blamed. Hopefully it will all someday become more clear and I can set records straight in the final book of this blog. Until then, please forgive me.

May Truth and Heart Stand Up for Freedom

Technological and Pharmaceutical Targeting is Not a "Theory"

This is not a "theory" - its a fight for our lives.
Its not a matter of if you believe it or not -
Its a matter of if you are aware and if you
Can care to help regain our freedom. 

This phrase has been on my website and in a poem on this blog

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

The Sly Covert Rescue Into Enslavement Depicted in a Music Video

   I had found this video a year or two ago and have actually been scared to post it. But I now feel a need to use it to help prove what has been happening in the process of people being targeted and then approached for a covert rescue that is falsely depicted as a good thing. I feel certain that the covert rescue is really a sly abduction into complete enslavement by the same people who target us. I had a dream about the false covert rescue in 2006 and I have experienced a lot of what is depicted in this video. I have tried to objectively look at it from different directions, but my heart still cries, "Genuine good openly stands in the Light and does not keep the dark targeting secret...."
I strongly feel that this type of covert rescue is a candy coated satanic abduction that wants to be able to say that it was the VICTIM'S CHOICE to go. . . and this is just too horribly sad for all who have been enslaved and those of us who are being tortured and surrounded by messages that call for us to leave our lives and join them in their "home,"  in order to get the painful technological tortures and harassment and threats of slanders or framings or false "mental illness" labels...etc., to stop.
    This Kelly Clark video of "People Like Us" is a blatant depiction of the targeting or monitoring and experimentation on a little girl and the covert rescue being portrayed as a wonderful thing. Don't blame Kelly Clark, because she most likely does not even realize what is happening.  But notice the words in this song as well as the video. I have experienced these sorts of messages from the covert program that surrounds me with round after round of tortures followed by aims to make me feel like they are on my side as they attempt covert rescues, which sometimes even use estranged loved ones who are already enslaved and think that they are helping...etc.; "Wake up into this world unknown, but know that we are not alone. . . They try to knock us down, but change is coming. . . Don't let it get the best of you. You'll make it out alive. . . People like us we've gotta stick together. . .  Hey, this is not a funeral. Its a revolution after all your tears have turned to rage. . . This is the life that we choose. . . Come out. Come out if you dare. Tonight we're gonna change forever... "


   This video also shows government officials as being the bad guys. This happens in the targeting - it tries to pit us against "the government." I'm not saying that every part of the government is totally innocent. I just strongly feel that there is also good there and that government officials, and their families, have also been being targeted. I feel that a covert aim to take over America has been happening through aims to take over all levels of government as well as businesses and common citizens. And, like I have been saying, I feel that this has been happening through technological and pharmaceutical mind control and possibly filters, which block detection of  radio wave frequencies used for mind control, as well as some modes of "protection" being a sly enslavement. (I still feel that there is far more corruption in all aspects of the field of medicine, than there is in our government, and that they have been getting away with far too much.) In the bigger picture, the targeting and enslavement has been happening to people from all walks of life. Its dangerous as hell. AND I FEEL THAT THE ONLY WAY TO GET COMPLETELY OUT OF IT IS TO OPENLY STAND UP IN THE LIGHT -  TO HONESTLY EXPOSE IT ALL SO THAT IT CAN BE STOPPED AND WE CAN ALL PULL TOGETHER AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF FIGHTING AGAINST EACH OTHER. GOD HELP US ALL TO BE TOTALLY SET FREE AND HAVE A CHANCE TO RECOVER.
Please Stand Up. Please Help Set Humanity Free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, February 13, 2017

The Worst Kind of Terrorism

    I'm having a hard time understanding the sudden border issues, connected with concerns about terrorism entering America, while we experience holocaustal levels of terrorism through space based radio wave technologies...etc., which may even be the root cause of most other types of terrorism around the globe as well as here.
   I feel that the worst kind of terrorism, which America and the rest of humanity has already been suffering from, is the technological and pharmaceutical mind control and its enslavement of human beings from all walks of life; the technological targetings that create a variety of physical illnesses and immeasurable suffering in unaware victims; the torturous targetings followed by aims to covertly rescue victims, which is actually abductions into enslavement performed under the guise of help; the staged deaths of victims who are permanently enslaved into the covert program that targets us; the inhumane tortures, false "mental illness" labels, and threats to kill, frame, slander...etc., that have been being inflicted upon heavily Targeted Individuals who start figuring out, refuse to join and aim to expose, what is happening.
   I beg the Heart of America (and other countries) to peacefully stand up, help restore our Freedom - help prevent criminal use of ground and space based radio wave technologies, pharmaceuticals, parasites...etc.; please help expose this technological holocaust and end the horrible suffering and confusion and destruction of people's minds, hearts, health, lives. . .and let recovery begin.

God help America and the rest of
humanity to regain its Freedom

P.S. I have altered this a bit, since its first posting several days ago, in order to not include my opinions of Trump's actions. . .which is all just too discouraging and seems too distracting during a time when too many are suffering in a horribly destructive technological holocaust and its covert wars. God, help us all to be completely set free and have a chance to recover.

P.S.S. These storms and cold temps have been difficult, but I'm hanging in here. The heater in my car worked for a short while today - during the hour or so that my car had already been warmed by a rare bit of sunshine.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Please do not Misjudge and Abandon Us

I decided to post this again, because it is important.

    I wish that all aware government officials would follow their Hearts into standing up for America and especially for those of us who are being technologically tortured, harassed...etc., no matter what our fear or anger or confusion writes or says. Please do not misjudge and/or abandon those of us who are being heavily targeted. We need you to understand and care that we are often too hurt or too overwhelmed or too scared or are being too tormented and tortured to be doing all the right things in all the right directions and in all the right ways, in order to report the targeting and get help. Most of the time its all we can do just to survive the hell we are trapped in. We need you to stand up for us no matter what obstacles and manipulations surround us. I wish that every level of government officials could compassionately pull together and honestly stand up for us, for each other, for America and ultimately for all of humanity as quickly as they can.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Radio Wave Blockers in a Hospital Parking Garage?

     I have tried hard to figure out who is doing the sadistic technological targeting, but can not completely do so while still being targeted. But there are obviously many people, from all walks of life, who have been being sadistically targeted and enslaved and used to help target and enslave other people. Its a horrible covert war that has been raging under a technological holocaust, which utilizes mind control technologies and their aiding pharmaceuticals. In the bigger picture, if anyone wants to point a finger at fully responsible parties, instead of blaming other victims, it would probably help to look deep into the history and backing of every branch of our medical field and people like Nicola Tesla.
   I have had many experiences that prove to me the link between the targeting and various parts of the medical field. A few years ago I was going through a round of technological torture of my brain. (The source, as usual, seemed to be coming from a satellite.) I drove under the parking garage at the Concord, New Hampshire Hospital, in order to park in a shady spot for a while, and the targeting instantaneously stopped. Then a security guard vehicle zoomed in and a man jumped out and rushed into, and then back out of, a utility shed inside of the garage. The torture suddenly started up again after he went into the utility shed. It seemed like he probably flipped a switch. I do not think that this was a coincidence.
   There have been many times when I've wondered why a place like the Concord Hospital has radio wave blockers in their parking garage and who, connected to them, was so keen on not letting me have a break from being tortured. . .and if they know about the technological targeting why are tortured victims continuing to be called "mentally ill"...etc. Why are they not on our side – the side of harmless and defenseless people who are being hurt?

More may be added later

Sadistic Targeting Patterns Are More Evident in Famous People

   The sadistic type of targetings have been happening to good, decent people from all walks of life, but are more evident in those who are famous, because so much of their lives are publicly recorded. (Having been being targeted myself I recognize the patterns.) It appears that some famous people have been targeted and careers ruined; some have been targeted and then "rescued" - enslaved in the covert program that is called "home"; some have been targeted and killed; some have experienced more than one of these methods; and all should be set free and have a chance to recover through realizing what has been happening to them. (The rest of us too.)
   Of the famous people, whom I have noticed the sadistic targeting patterns around, are the Dixie Chicks, Micheal Jackson, Sugarland, Sarah McLachlan and Kris Kristofferson.
    With artists like Micheal Jackson and Sarah McLachlan its more obvious - they obviously brought heart into their music, which touched other people's Hearts. Then the "accident" or chains of losses or slanders. . .and then things are not the same as they were before. In Micheal Jackson's case his change became noticeable in his videos as well as in the sad surgical mutilation of his own facial features, which had to have been done with technological and pharmaceutical mind control affecting his perception of his looks. He was adorable before he did that to himself! The Dixie Chicks were VERY blatantly targeted - their career  ruined. And was that stage collapse on August 13, 2011, just before a Sugarland concert a true "accident" or was it caused by microwave weapons - weather modification technologies? One USA news report stated that "Kristian Bush thought a bomb had detonated." The news reports speak for themselves. It can not all be coincidences, though some may be.
   This list of people, famous or otherwise, being inflicted with sudden disasters or unusual chains of losses or slanderings...etc., as their lives (as they lived them) crumble, could go on and on and on and include me and also many people whom I personally knew. I hope that all enslaved individuals and groups and organizations will soon realize the enslavement.  I hope that those of us who are still being tortured for resisting soon get the protection we need. I hope that humanity will be quickly set free from all levels of the targeting and enslavement - the Heart of humanity saved.

   The Sugarland video below has a powerful message. Its has a great beat with awesome lyrics. We all do indeed need to peacefully "stand up," not just children. But the "home" part, at the beginning of the video, disturbs me, because that is what those who target us call their covert enslavement program - they call it going "home," in order to make it sound good to victims whom they are deceiving. Many victims seem to think that the "rescue" into the enslavement "home" is protection, but its not. Does Sugarland know this? Obviously not. But I hope they find out soon, if that is what the "home" in this video is about. [UPDATE: But sadly, they split up after the fatal stage collapse and the confusion and chaos that followed it.]

Sugarland: "Stand Up" [live]


God help us all to be totally set free
 I pray for God to help us all to be totally set free and NOT enslaved in that dark "home," which too many have been convinced is a good place to be. I still strongly believe that the covert "rescue" into what they call "home" is actually enslavement.


Wednesday, February 1, 2017

I Dedicate this Song to My Daughters

   Thinking of my daughters and I, as I listen to this song, tears at my heart. Before the targeting finished tearing us apart, and before I realized that we were being targeted, (around the year 2005) I had launched into putting most of my focus into my work, while the targeting slowly and inconspicuously tore us apart. As I realized the technological part of the targeting it quickly vamped up, and convinced them that I was just "mentally ill," because I tried to convince them of what was happening and to join me in trying to get FBI help with it. They tried to have me institutionalized and I was forced to completely pull away from them. This was in the fall of 2011 and was the most painful day of my life. As I drove away I called them, and, in more pain than I have ever felt, said, "That was the worse thing you could have done! You just lost me." This was the day that they became a danger to me and I felt that I had lost them. But I'm sure that they didn't understand and were deeply hurt too. There was no one in their lives who could help them understand that the targeting was real and they were surrounded by too many who had been doing the opposite. We didn't stand a chance. They lost me and I lost them and this has surely left a painful wound in all of our hearts, because we had been close and our love for each other had ran deep.
   We were all deeply hurt as the targeting cruelly tore us apart. At first I stayed away from them, in order to save myself from being institutionalized and force medicated. And then I stayed away, in order to save all three of us from those types of vamp ups against me.
    Before I realized the scope of the mind control part of the targeting I had felt disappointed in them for not letting their Hearts bypass messages from those who had been convincing them that the targeting was all in my head and that I should go to an institution. But I now realize how impossible it has been for them to realize and face the reality of the targeting. I know now that none of it was their fault. They were also targeted and hurt in many ways. I still believe in their Hearts. I still believe in them - in who they were born to be. I was blessed with two absolutely awesome people for daughters. And I am not just saying that because I am their mother. Its really True. And the pains that have been inflicted upon them has hurt me too.
   I have tried not to think of them very much during this time of forced separation and my fight to survive, because it hurts too much and there is nothing I can do to bridge the gap or stop the targeting or save them (or myself) until we have other people openly acknowledging the targeting and protecting us from it. My excruciating wait for that has already felt like more than one forever and it does not look like it will be able to happen. I miss them so much - I deeply miss what could have been if we had not been targeted. My heart aches for all that has been lost in the decades of the hell that we have been surviving. Not being able to freely be together and love and trust each other has hurt indescribably.
   I still periodically send them little "I love you" messages, because I can not bear them feeling unloved or blamed by me. But words are not the real thing, especially when delivered through technologies. I wish we were all free and recovering from the hell we have been put through. My written fight for freedom has often been fueled by my hope for our hearts to reunite and recover and make up for too many lost decades.

    Though our separation was forced by the targeting, I still often feel guilty. I wish I'd realized the full nature of the targeting sooner. I wish I'd known. I wish I could have protected them from the pain of thinking that their mom is crazy as well as from the other targetings that have been performed against them. I wish I could take away their pain and free their beautiful Hearts.

Dear Girls, I am so sorry that their has been too little that I could do. I still believe in us - I believe that our hearts will eventually re-unite even if this can not happen in this lifetime. I still believe in you - I still believe in the beauty of your Hearts and Souls. I love you both so much.

Vince Gill - I Still Believe In You

   This post is not asking my daughters to stand with me. I know that this is impossible without outside help. I just want them to know that they have not lost my love and that I do not blame them. They are victims too.

 I still believe in me too.

Sarah McLachlan Targeted?

   I had intuitively felt that Sarah McLachlan had been targeted and that it was probably due to her deep heart and strong sense of independence. Then I saw a few videos of hers and felt more sure of it. There seems to be many similarities in her character and mine, although she got a lot further than I did, and even made a come back, with her work. The targeting also seems to have followed some similar patterns in our situations. One of the patterns has been a process of bringing us to our knees through instigating deaths of loved ones or broken relationships or loss of business or all of these...etc., and then repeatedly putting out the message to "think positive" as we feel and express the pain. . . And through it all they try to force us into the enslavement "home." It appears that Sarah went through this. I have too.
   My heart keeps saying "Its more positive to be real, especially in a world where the demand for "positive thinking" merely aims to push us away from our feelings - away from our Hearts and away from being real." And my soul cries, "I don't belong in that dark "home." I don't want to go! I want to be free until my REAL Home calls for me."
   I love most of Sarah McLachlan's first songs, especially the "Arms of the Angel." I like the part of the song, in the video below, which says, "I won't break. I won't bend. It'll all be worth it - worth it in the end. . . In the burning of uncertainty I will be your solid ground. . . Cast me gently into morning for the night has been unkind. Take me to a place so holy that I can wash this from my mind..." 

Sarah McLachlan plays "Answer" - LIVE


   I can relate to much of this song as well as many others that Sarah McLachlan has written. As I suffer through the targeting my heart often cries, I don't want to break! As I am surrounded by rude demands for blind obedience, my soul cries, I don't want to bend! I desperately need a safe and solid ground and wish I had it. And my hope used to think, it will all be worth it in the end.  But lately I am not so sure. I guess time will tell. I'm scared for America and the rest of the world. I'm scared for those of us who have been being heavily targeted. And I am scared for me. May our Freedom be quickly restored no matter what obstacles sit in its path


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

 P.S. It appears that I am getting some flack for posting this. But I feel that it is important for us to stand up for each other. I also feel that Micheal Jackson and Sugarland have been being targeted. And God knows how many others who do not realize it. I notice the patterns in these people because they are public figures and play music that I like and watch. I do not notice most people.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Yesterday Was a Warm Day

   Yesterday was the first day, in about two weeks, that the sun shone so bright I did not need the heater in my car to function, in order to stay warm. But the heater did suddenly start working around 10:30am and then stopped in late afternoon as it started getting cold enough to need it. (My car heater has not worked since around the 18th and only worked off and on prior to that - since this cold spell began.)
   I now feel even more sure that it is most likely being controlled by those who target me, in order to make me suffer and perhaps to try to force me into libraries or restaurants or a room or a shelter or... - places where I would be more vulnerable to some parts of the targeting, especially the covert abduction/rescue into enslavement part.
   I'm often cold, but I'm hanging in here. Its safer to live in my car until the targeting is stopped and/or I am safe and protected from all parts of it. Its no picnic, and I'm about as sick of it as I can be, but there are far worse things than living in a car and I have already experienced too many of them.


P.S. I erased the post about my song being stolen and made into a hit and then thrown into my face, by those who target me, because the singer is not the thief and I don't want people to think he is...and so much happened that its too much to explain right now...and I am afraid...etc. There is nothing I can do about it, at this point, anyway. 

A Wish for Peaceful Regaining of Our Freedom

   I wish that all aware government officials would follow their Hearts into standing up for America and especially for those of us who are being technologically tortured, harassed...etc., no matter what our fear or anger or confusion writes or says. We are often too hurt or too overwhelmed or too scared or are being too tormented and tortured to be doing all the right things in all the right directions and in all the right ways, in order to report the targeting. Most of the time its all we can do just to survive the hell we are trapped in. We need you to stand up for us no matter what obstacles and manipulations surround us. I wish that every level of government officials could compassionately pull together and honestly stand up for us, for each other, for America and ultimately for all of humanity as quickly as they can.

P.S. I moved the Sarah McLachlan video, that was, because it was not really related to this post. Find it on; http://sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com/2017/02/sarah-mclachlan-targeted.html Please watch it. I believe that she has been being targeted in similar ways that I have.It was also posted on my Yearn for Freedom blog; http://yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com/2017/02/sarah-mclachlan-targeted.html


Sunday, January 29, 2017

Technological Holocaust Song

   I wrote this song yesterday. I dedicate it to all who are aware and can help restore our freedom, all who are not aware and need to be. . .and all who are being hurt by the targeting and need to be set free. Its for all of humanity.

 Technological Holocaust
copyright Sharon R. Poet

It took me a while to realize. I searched real hard for the Truth
And know its not just my bad luck. I've been targeted since my youth.
Its a horrid covert battle. I've been shot for feeling the pain.
Those God forsaken microwaves have been messing with my brain.

(CHORUS 1) I keep begging for my freedom. I want it back. 
I need it back. Please give me back my freedom. 
Please give it back to me. I need to be set free.

I have stepped outside myself and looked all around me.
Broken souls and broken hearts are all my pain can see.
Ya, I've read the news reports that say we're "mentally ill."
For us tortured victims that's yet another painful hill.
There are mountains all around us that loved ones can't believe.
We've been dieing in the silence of those who've been deceived.

(CHORUS 2) We keep begging for our freedom. We want it back. 
We need it back. Please give us back our freedom. 
Please give it back to us. Let us feel their love.

I've searched the world beyond us, even peaked into some graves
And it hurts beyond description - humanity being enslaved.
I no longer wonder why they can not see or grieve
As wounded victims crumble while groping for relief.

(CHORUS 3) I'm begging for their freedom. They want it back. 
They need it back. Please give them back their freedom. 
Please give it back to them. Let them love again.

(Ending) Please give them back their freedom.
Please give it back to them. Let them love again.
Please give us back our freedom.
Please give it back to us. Don't let us turn to dust.
Please give me back my freedom.
Please give it back to me. Don't leave me here to bleed.
God, please set us free - all of humanity.


P.S. Targetors, I want it back; all that you stole from me, all that you sabotaged and did not let be. Please give it back to me. My life, my love, my song, my freedom and that for humanity...etc.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Vision of a World With Heart

   I had posted this a few other times. But here it is again with the hope for God's Light to reach the Hearts that can help it become a reality for us and America and ultimately all of humanity;

Vision of a World With Heart in "Heights of Wisdom" Story
An Earlier Version on the Heart Bud Sight; www.heartbud.com/worldwithheart.html

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Surviving the Cold

   Lately there has been more rounds of what appears to be aims to force me out of my car and into a more solid living arrangement or shelter where I could be more vulnerable to some parts of the targeting. Recent rounds also appear to include the usual aims to torture, terrorize and make me suffer just before swarming me with the false covert rescue stuff that I believe leads to complete enslavement. I hope they do not succeed with any of it.
   On the coldest night in the past couple weeks my car heater started malfunctioning, at strategic times. Then I said something about it and had a mechanic check it out. . . and then it completely stopped working. Since then it also appears that they are microwaving me into feeling and appearing physically ill with flu type symptoms. I do not feel that I am really sick. It feels more like they are microwaving my sinuses and lungs...etc., in the same way that they have many times before.
   It is cold at night and during the cloudy days, but I am surviving it. I have three very warm blankets - one that is alpaca, which I bought on a trip to Peru before they finished shoving me into destitution. Not that this trip really has anything to do with the targeting...although I was seriously targeted in Peru in 2001 as well. But I didn't know that I was being targeted back then and it sometimes helps me to remember days when I thought I was free.  I miss the Freedom I didn't have.


P.S. It appears that posting this made things worse for me. Those who target me seem to think I should remain silent about what they do to me. Its sometimes hard to keep up the posts when they make me suffer more for speaking up. Two days after this post I was hit with what seemed to be another attempt to inflict a heart attack, dead animals left in roads, demands to erase my writings, interference with my car...etc. This was a typical round of the worse types of terroristic stuff. I survived again. But I am scared and I hope it stops soon and I hope for my car to not be disabled or interfered with anymore. "OK. OK," they say as I write this PS, which seems to be a threat to vamp it up again due to my writing about what they are doing to me.

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

My Favorite MLK Quote

"I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional Love will have the final word.”

  I really love this saying and I believe that "unarmed truth and unconditional Love" must "have the final word,” in order for us to regain our freedom and heal from the Technological Holocaust.

I Decided Not to be an Organ Donor

   I have experienced and sensed so much corruption in the medical field that I wonder what other sorts of things our organs could be used for. And I have developed concerns about what would happen to our Spirit or Soul if our brain or heart...etc., remained alive while the rest of our body is gone. So, I decided not to be an organ donor.

More Torture!

   Since late yesterday I am experiencing another round of what feels like painful laser shots into the top left part of my brain.
   On Sunday I experienced one of the worse episodes of mind control while talking to a relative. I said some things in ways that were completely out of character for me. Though not anything too horrible, it concerns me. And the rounds of torture to my brain both before and after this concerns me greatly. . .as does the fact that it felt like I had been drugged - unusually dry mouth and foggy thinking for a few hours. It felt like this was all some sort of a set up, but I'm not sure for what yet. I, of course, want all levels of the targeting to stop and not succeed.

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Painful Lasering of Vital Part of Brain!

    At around 3:00am this morning I was waken by what felt like painful lasering of the top left front part of my brain. I rolled onto my left side and it let up, possibly because that side of my head was surrounded by the metal in my car after I rolled over. But then I felt a sudden infliction of pain in my left hip, which seemed to be to make me roll back over...exposing that vital part of my head again. I did not roll back over, but the lasering started back up after I got up and hurt for several hours.
  When I went into a cafe to warm up, an ad on a TV showed wallpaper with birds on it. . .and the spokesman saying, "All these birds can see except for this one," as it showed one bird's head being covered with an electrical outlet. (I am still amazed at how much control they have over radio and TV and computers. My gut feeling is that these sorts of things probably happen far more than I realize, because I am rarely subjected to TVs.)
   This incident could be viewed as coincidence, like most levels of the technological targeting, but my connection with birds, and this particular thing being said on the morning that my brain is being lasered in the lobotomy area, seems like a bit too much of a coincidence to me. Also the "seeing" part happening after yesterday's round of them again trying to tell me that I am God...and me not leaping to believe it and proclaim it, seems like it is not a coincidence either. I am NOT God! I need protection for my brain.
   This all feels horrible. It seems like they were torturing me for not blindly believing/seeing and proclaiming what they wanted me to! And IF there are important things that I am not seeing its because they have been torturing me and interfering with the function of my brain with radio waves being shot into it and sometimes it appears to also be with drugs left on surfaces I touch...etc. 

Please stop lasering my brain.

   As for the issue of me possibly having been Jesus in a past life; I honestly do not know if this is a game they playing with me or if they really believe that or if it is possibly true. I  have been being too heavily targeted to figure it all out. And absolute Truth is very important on such a subject.  One thing I do feel that I know for sure is that Jesus was NOT God - Jesus was the son of God and we are all God's children and we can all grow into the same Heart potential when we have the Freedom to do so. May that Freedom come quickly.

Friday, January 13, 2017

As Freedom Rings

This is the third in a series of three poems I wrote last night and this morning.

As Freedom Rings

Please don't let anger and fear prevail.
Take Love's hand and get out of jail.
This message is for me as much as you.
Please don't let them do what they do.
Just stand up, dust off your wings
And join the Doves as Freedom rings.

P.S. The ravens say, "Its you. Its you." To play games or blame me for the things they do? But Truth shines over manipulations and I pray they will in my situation. The Truth is they use me and them to reach their dark aim again and again. Oh, God help Your Light to win.

The Heart I Felt

This is the second in a series of three poems I wrote last night and this morning.

The Heart I Felt

I woke and prayed like many a day
For Light and Love to grow and stay
Then passed a dark and tangled fight
Where on a roof perched the night
But then three chickens and the Doves
Dared peak inside to remind me of Love.
And oh! It was there before and after -
A simple ray from Heaven's rafter.
And tears again did fill my eyes
As the sun rose in cloud parted skies.
Perhaps, somehow, all will be alright.

Where Raven's Land

This is the first in a series of three poems I wrote last night and this morning.

Where Raven's Land

The eerie glow of fogged in lights
Marked the road on a cold night,
As ravens made an unwelcomed landing,
Which failed to leave us in good standing.
"Oh, why and how?" my fear still asks,
While hiding behind a reluctant mask.
What did happen in those dark days
When hoards of ravens flew their way?
Is everything still OK?
Where's the good that can't be gone?
And where is that old hopeful song?
Oh, Dear God, too much feels wrong!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

A New Realization With Usual Rounds of Torture

   Throughout most of yesterday my brain was lasered in ways that infilicted uncharacteristic anger. Then this morning I am experiencing painful torture levels lasering. During this process they sent a lot of foreign puppets around me and instruct me to go to New York. This has happened many times and the patterns  match the other rounds of tortures, which try to force me to leap into the hands of those who are doing the targeting - the false rescue thing. (I have written about this pattern before.) And the same thing seems to happen with the foreign puppets, while I am being tortured. I find this disturbing, especially when this happens at times when they think I might want to blame American agencies, and it seems like it is being performed by the same hell that has been targeting me as well as America. . .and is not genuine help at all. This round of it came at a time when I am deeply concerned about what appears to be a large, dark swarm against a county law enforcement agency.


 P.S. Sorry if this is not very clear. My brain is being tortured and can not take much time with it. More may be added soon.

Monday, January 9, 2017

Our Thoughts Are Not Private and Not Always Our Own

   Like I have said before, I have realized, after much doubt, that the claims of technological mind reading and dream projection being remotely performed on Targeted Individuals is indeed True. With the psychotronic weapons attached to our brains our thoughts are not private. If we think it they know it. If we know it those who target us know it. If we dream it they know it. If we plan it they know it. AND sometimes they even intrusively plug in their own thoughts and dreams. Not all of our thoughts are authentically our own.
  I understand how "crazy" this sounds. But its true and the plugging in of thoughts and dreams needs to be known by those whom it has happened to and think they are their own thoughts, and also those who plan to use the technological mind reading as methods of interrogation, which is reported to become part of the high tech future.

P.S. I have gotten tortured and received a lot of flack for writing the previous prayer. Part of it was even erased as I tried to post it. Its for all of us – for all of America and every human being on Earth. I hope it reaches a lot of Hearts.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Please Help to Pray or Wish and Peacefully Act

   If you do not believe in God please wish for the following things to happen - wish for the dark forces in our world to lose their power and for the good to rise up stronger. Wish for every level of the harmful targeting of humanity to immediately stop. And all wars, both covert and overt, to immediately stop. And do not stop wishing for it until it permanently happens. Also please take peaceful action if you are in positions where you can help stop criminal use of technological and pharmaceutical mind control and all other forms of targetings that have been enslaving and/or harming humanity. And, if you are in a position where you can do so, please inform the public so that confusion and doubt can be replaced with understanding and comfort.

    Dear God,* please immediately shine a strong, permanent beam of pure white Light* upon those of us who have been being heavily targeted - surround us with the honest understanding, compassion, help and protection that we have desperately needed for too long. Please end our suffering - protect us from further harm and restore our freedom to think and feel and live and Love and be all that we were born to be.   
    Dear God, please immediately shine a strong, permanent beam of pure white Light, so strong that all dark, infiltrating forces completely lose their power; shine that Light into the American White House and all of its connecting facilities, every military complex, every Home Land Security facility, every FBI agency, every Sheriff's office, every local and state police facility and all other government buildings and vehicles. Please protect them from pharmaceutical and technological mind control, especially that which enslaves while claiming to "protect," as well as all other forms of harmful targeting. P
lease set them free so they can do the same for us.   Provide them with technologies that do not contain filters, which prevent detection or blocking of the radio wave frequencies that are used for mind control; please help them to do everything in their power to prevent criminal use of all ground and space based radio wave technologies, especially those which are used for mind control and the enslavement of humanity, as well as  intentional microwave induced illnesses and interference with the Earth and its atmosphere;  please also help them bring an end to all levels of the pharmaceutical targeting, parasite targeting and chemical targeting...etc. Please help their Hearts to make a huge peaceful, safe, public stand that helps people to understand what has been happening so that the confusion, doubts and fear can be replaced with understanding, trust, comfort and healing.  And, God, please do the same in the United Nations and all other countries, so that all covert wars, both within and between all countries, can stop and Genuine Freedom and Peace on Earth can Prevail.
    Dear God, please immediately shine a strong, permanent beam of pure white Light, so strong that all dark, infiltrating forces completely lose their power;  shine that Light onto all targeted families around the globe so that the confusion is replaced with understanding of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control...etc., and discord can be replaced with comfort and Love;  shine that Light into all food production, distribution and sales companies so that our foods can retain their natural nutrients and do not contain parasites, chemicals or any other harmful substance;  shine that Light into all water supplies and free them of the chemicals and pharmaceuticals that can harm or aid technological mind control;   shine that Light into all medical facilities, including psychiatric and dental, and prevent them from being used to harm, drug, microchip, abduct and enslave fellow human beings;  shine that Light into all churches and other religious organizations - set them free and help them to be supportive sources of  genuine Love and Light;  shine that Light around the Earth and its atmosphere - repair the damage that has been created and let no more be done;   shine that protective Light onto every citizen around the globe - protect us from all levels of the targeting and help us heal from it, so that our Hearts can be free to lead us into all that we were born to be;  shine that Light strong onto all ravens, their leaders and all others who perform mind control and other lethal targetings against fellow human beings - prevent them from doing further harm and set them free so they can choose to follow their own Hearts instead of performing covert wars...etc. Set all the puppets of that covert program free, especially those who have been abducted, tortured, threatened or brainwashed into it;  shine that Light into all satellites and space stations and ground based radio wave technologies - immediately set them free from all sorts of criminal use or prevent from being used at all if that can not happen;  shine that Light into all other places that need it. I may have forgotten some. Please forgive me.
   Dear God, please immediately shine a strong, permanent beam of pure white Light upon those of us who have been being heavily targeted - surround us with the honest understanding, compassion, help and protection that we have desperately needed for too long. Please end our suffering - protect us from further harm and restore our freedom to think and feel and live and Love and be all that we were born to be.

* The God I pray to is Love and Light and not to be confused with those who play god with judgmental groups who use surveillance and mind control and torturous laser weapons on defenseless people. And the Light is from only that pure Love/God and should not be confused with the energies that have been being used to target humanity, the Earth and its atmosphere.

P.S. As I suffer through round after round of facing the reality of how much darkness has been surrounding me, I have often felt frozen under the strain it's torturous targetings against me and witnesses and those who could help me. I have lately felt so trapped that I do not know what to do and have started to panic. But my Heart is reaching through my pain and feelings of hopelessness to cry out, "pray harder, Sharon - pray with your heart and put more focus on the Light, which has far more power than the dark." This is what inspired the new round of the above prayer. I am doing the best I can, even though this morning's prayer was followed by a numbing and painful torture to my brain. Please help me to pray for our Freedom to be restored. I can not do this alone.
   I also pray that all of the tortures performed on me stop and that I am allowed the freedom to think and feel and pray and live my own life.

P.S.S. As usual, they are having puppets send children around me and keep asking, “Are you ready?” I guess this is a threat to frame me as a pedophile as I do the things they dread most – focus on Heart and Light. This has happened many times. "Steal the car" was also said by a puppet. And I experienced painful levels of torture on my second day of adding to this post. God help them find their Hearts and protect me from their deceptions.  Please let your Heart send financial help to the address listed in the upper right side of this blog.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

They Traumatize me, in Order to Flush Out People Who Want to Help Me!?!

   It appears that those who target me have been traumatizing me, in order to flush out good people who could be witnesses to the targeting and even professionals who may want to help me!  Unless you can fully stand up for me in a protective group it is probably best to not show up no matter what they do or how upset I get. It even appears that Sheriff and FBI, as well as local police...etc, have been being swarmed and watched and sometimes even targeted by those who target me. I have sensed this in the ones that I have turned to for help as well as those whom I could turn to. Sometimes it appears that the dark forces even aim to take them over. I hope they are not succeeding. I am deeply concerned for good, uncontrolled people in those places. I hope the good stays strong. I pray for uncontrolled people (especially officials) to pull together into protective groups and fully stand up for themselves and those of us who are being hurt. . .and ultimately for all of America and the rest of humanity. God help us all to be free from technological mind control.

Ravens swarm and dive and screech.
Oh dear God! Not the Hawks they breech!
Then they blocked my mode of speech
While for Light my tears did reach.

P.S. The password on my primary email account was changed yesterday or today and it was difficult to get back into it since they had erased all of my email accounts that were associated with my www.poeticpublications.com web site! I lost a lot of data in those emails. I wonder if this is connected with the fact that I just re-added advertisements to my blog. They had blocked me from doing this in the past.  I guess it was another way to limit/sabotage potential income. The ads are not yet working on my site. I hope they will be allowed to remain there and remain functional this time.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

A Rough Start to 2017

   As the first of the year approached I did not think of a resolution...per say. I thought about striving to survive. There is not much else that I can decide. But I keep thinking that, in order to survive, I need to do something different - turn over a new leaf that can add a bit more hope and sense of purpose and accomplishment so that I can tolerate the targeting better. . .until it is stopped. But all I can think of is my work. My heart yearns to return to my work - to that which has been being altered and sabotaged or prevented from the start.
   The deepest part of my work involved healing from past pains and opening my heart to deeper levels and encouraging others to do the same so that we can bring more Love into our troubled world. Needless to say, this can not be done while being targeted. The technological tortures and brain scans and covert harassment need to stop before I can even start to recover from them. (I am even smoking cigarettes to calm off the charts levels of distress!)
   I have not sold very many of my books on Amazon. I have wondered if they have been being blocked on the web. But I have also felt forced to offer most of them for free, because my life has been in danger and much of the time I do not know if I will survive until the next day and I no longer have anyone who could carry it on for me.
   As for other parts of my work; my link to the Poetography Prints has been repeatedly altered to prevent people from seeing them, my pictures for them have been being altered and erased, and I no longer have the resources do them and my line of cards; Advertisers in my old Heart Bud publications appear to have been being targeted since 2008 and I no longer have the resources to print it on my own. The last two printings put me in debt and one of them appears to have been altered; My homes have been being sabotaged or destroyed since 1995 and I now live in a car, that is actually a bit safer while being so heavily targeted, but its more difficult in other ways; My plan to use the profits from my work, in order to create at least one healing/recovery center, now feels like a dream, from some other lifetime, that has been drowning in the trenches of this lethal technological and pharmaceutical holocaust, although many, including myself, desperately need it now. It hurts. It all hurts so much!
   I have tried many other jobs, with the aim to get back on my feet with my own work, but those jobs were either sabotaged or used to open doors to more lethal levels of targeting, which I feel I can no longer tolerate. Since the end of 2012 I feel like I have been dangling from the end of a noose and struggling to at least get a foot hold on something solid and secure and safe. . .and I guess all I can do is keep trying to prevent them the targeting from completely strangling me. . .for as long as I can and hope its all over before I am.

P.S. It looks like either a brake or gas line has been again tampered with on my car in the past week or so. This is not a "Happy New Year" time for me. I wish it were. (It appears that the leak suddenly stopped, all by itself, within two days after I exposed it. OK! So, either I am nuts or someone patched it so that it would not be detected or it was from some other mysterious thing. I'll have to keep an eye on it.)

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Call for Compassionate Understanding

      I have probably misperceived more of the covert stuff than I now realize. I think that there have been times when I saw good as bad and visa versa. Instincts do not work well when we are overwhelmed, when our brains are being microwaved and when too much is hidden behind covert veils. I hope to fix and further explain my blog writings. I wish I could fix it all now, but I do not yet have the freedom, or all of the understanding that I'd need, in order to do it honestly and effectively.
    In the early stages of realizing the full scope of the targeting its too easy to perceive everyone who behaves unusually or rude as a "perp." Breaking free from this mind set is difficult, because it is part of the brainwashings to push us into blaming our loved ones and the government and innocent people who are being set up. I feel that most of them are victims too - that they are often either brainwashed against us or are completely enslaved into the covert program that targets us. I had perceived many mind control victims as perps before I started realizing that they are merely puppets who are being used by the real perpetrators who hide in the shadows of their operation. But its often too difficult to distinguish between the two, while being heavily targeted. This is one of the reasons why I ask for people to excuse things that my fear and ignorance has put into some of my writings.
    The blame thing is a horrible catch 22. There is a difference between placing blame and holding people responsible for their actions, but where do we draw the line of responsibility with mind control victims who think they are doing the right things or think they are following something that is good? And how do we draw that line without falling into the dark plan for us to be pitted against each other, instead of protecting, comforting and Loving each other? How do we effectively deal with this until humanity is free to think and feel and care?
    Although in the bigger picture puppets are often victims too, in the smaller picture they can be a danger to those of us who are heavily Targeted Individuals. (This does not apply to those who intentionally perform criminal acts. It applies to those who are unaware mind control victims or deceived members of a dark covert program that they think is good...etc.)
   Anyone who has been brainwashed into thinking that we are mentally ill or are criminals or are terrorists or are evil...etc., can be a danger to us, especially if they are in a position of authority that can have us institutionalized or incarcerated. This creates a horrible situation for those of us who are being heavily targeted. In my heart I sense the good in my family and America and the rest of the world, but I also know that when its not protected, or not standing in the light and fully aware, it can be taken over by the dark forces that target us all. The technological and pharmaceutical enslavement of humanity is truly a holocaustal situation. Its horribly sad for EVERYONE concerned, especially for those of us who are being physically and psychologically tortured and have not received the understanding, compassion and protection that is desperately needed.
   It can be difficult, for those of us who are being heavily targeted, to try to understand and feel compassion for loved ones who are brainwashed against us, or government agencies that have not been able to be here for us in the ways we have needed, but we must if this hell, and its covert wars that pit people against each other, are ever going to end.
   Until the technological and pharmaceutical mind control and the covert program that enslaves and uses unaware victims, have been completely exposed and stopped, and people have a chance to understand and leave it and return to their Hearts, extreme care and open mindedness must be exercised. And the normal process of excusing and forgiving must be expanded. They are not all "perps." Many are unaware mind control victims who are just being used by the real perpetrators.

 God help us all.

P.S. I have been concerned about my writings and hope that they do not offend good people who could eventually be here for us in the ways that are desperately needed. My heart keeps assuring me that they will understand and I hope it is right.

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Drum Making Work Shops Sabotaged

   All aspects of my life's work have been sabotaged in various ways. And, every now and then, I remember confusing chains of events that I now believe were part of the targeting. The most recent realization was the chains of events that happened while I taught Drum Making Workshops in the mid 1990s.
   Drum making and teaching is something I had felt very drawn to do and it also provided a source of income.  But odd things happened from the start of my decision to teach the workshops. At the time I was baffled and couldn't understand why I was having so much "bad luck." But I now believe that it was all part of the targeting, which aimed to sabotage my work.
   After one of my first workshops people complained that they felt completely drained of energy while doing the workshop at my home. (I now believe that they were technologically targeted - their energy drained with microwave weapons.)  Then I went to teach a workshop that was hosted by the neighbor of a friend and, while we were making our drums, their dog suddenly became vicious and killed a kitten in front of us. This was horrible for everyone, especially for the owner of the dog and kitten who was shocked and kept saying that she didn't understand, because they had gotten along fine and the dog was gentle. (I now believe that the dog's brain was remotely technologically interfered with.)  Then I was invited to Nantucket to teach a workshop at a Nature Center. While we took a break for lunch, a fire broke out in the circle we had been sitting in and destroyed one person's drum and left a burn mark in a wooden deck. (I can no longer believe that this happened all by itself.)
   These sorts of things happening, especially around spiritually minded people, made me look bad. After these episodes a man, whom I now know was a puppet for those who target me, kept calling me and wanting me to teach him how to make drums so that he could teach the workshops in the area I had just moved to. He was really pushy and very obviously moving in to take over my work and even wanted me to help him do it. I let it go, but not because I wanted to - because I was losing business, and my reputation, due to the disasters that were happening at my workshops. The pushy man was just the last straw.

   There were also a few stores that carried my drums, like with my Poetography Prints. I loved drum making and I loved teaching it. In my classes I encouraged prayer and meditation, the Native American tradition of thanking the spirit of the animals and a healing, spiritual focus while building the drums. It came natural to me. And I feel that I would have done well with it, as a side business, if it had not been sabotaged by those who target me.

Technological Harassment - Unnatural Muscle Spasms

    I have experienced this in many ways...from what feels like the lasering of facial tendons or muscles or nerves to painful spasms in my toes. The odd thing with my toes is that it often happened in the early 1980s when I was snuggling on the couch with my newly wed husband. The pain would cause me to jump up and put pressure on my feet and/or grab my toes and hold them tight. My husband thought it was odd. I showed it to him once - I held my foot up and bore the pain for as long as I could while some of my toes moved in an unnatural direction to the point of almost bending completely sideways and pushing against the others. It felt like they were going to break. At the time we both just thought it was odd. There was no medical explanation for it. I now believe that it was technologically induced, through remote lasering of tendons nerves or muscles, and was probably performed to interfere with my being held and comforted.
   Lately, my right leg has often been lasered. The other night my upper lip did something weird just before the laser weapon moved to my foot and then my pubic area during an obvious episode of technological harassment as I tried to go to sleep.
   These sorts of tortures and harassment, as well as others, have been ongoing for me as well as others whom I know have been targeted. I know a target who suddenly started being kept awake with painful muscle spasms in his legs during the night, in the 1970s. It was called a "charlie horse" but I now think it was mostly, if not completely technologically induced, in order to torture him and deprive him of sleep.

Forced to Erase Evidence From Phone

   I recently experienced yet another episode of my phone not being allowed to store messages, due to claims of it being full although it was not full. This sees to be a way to force me to erase stored messages, which could be used as evidence of the targeting. I've lost a lot of messages this way. If I do not erase them so that others can be stored, I am forced to answer every phone call, which is not good for me, due to the levels of harassment calls I have gotten. I have experienced the same things with pictures stored on my phone. I have often gotten a message that the memory is full when I try to take a picture of stalkers. . .or after I already have, in order to make me erase some of them. The same thing happens with text messages.

The Mutilation of Character

   It appears that lines or wrinkles in the skin can be remotely inflicted with lasers. Around the time when those who target me started the "aging" threat thing, which I wrote about in a recent post, I had started feeling itching and tingling around the base of my nose - between my eyes. The skin in this area started flaking as well. Then I had odd, unnatural lines/wrinkles across the top of my nose.This has also happened with unnatural vertical lines on my upper lip...etc.
   Natural wrinkles do not bother me. I have not had the common concerns about aging, which I feel have become destructive to humanity. HOWEVER, what they have done to me bothers me, because it is very important to me to age naturally. What they have been doing to my skin and face, AFTER threatening to, is not natural and is changing the way I look. I want to age naturally and I should be allowed to.
   I have always felt that the types of wrinkles, which a person naturally accumulates as they age, reflects our character. Surgical alterations of the natural process of facial aging defaces a person's character. And when it is done without permission it is a mutilation of character that should not be happening.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

My Car - My Home - My Safety

  Looks like they are again trying to sabotage my car and force me into a worse environment without a vehicle to be able to leave with!!!!  I hope I am wrong and this is not another episode of that. If not, I hope that they do not succeed. I need the car until I can replace it. And I do not want to be trapped in any place that I do not feel comfortable with. Actually I do not want to be trapped anywhere. Please stop disabling my vehicle.

Friday, December 16, 2016

New Introduction Book

[ Update Jan 20, 2017; The more complete version of this book; https://www.amazon.com/Ramblings-Targeted-Individual-Sharon-Rose/dp/1542674182/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1485181606&sr=8-1&keywords=ramblings+of+a+targeted+individual 

   This is more complete than the previous "Introduction" book. It is a partially edited version of old editions, plus new updates, that are not in the others. All of the many editions of this  book have been aims for me (a Targeted Individual) to expose technological and pharmaceutical mind control, covert harassment...etc., and get help for all of us. It is  a good example of what a Targeted Individual goes through in the process of carrying the immense burden of trying to prove and expose technological and covert targetings...etc., while still being targeted. Please read this book with your Heart, excuse mistakes, and do all that you can to help stop all levels of the targeting of humanity.
  Doing these writings while being harassed, and sometimes threatened and tortured for doing so, has been an immense challenge to say the least. Older, more original posts are in the edition numbers one through four and ten through fourteen. Editions five through nine were too severely edited and interfered with. I am deeply sorry for the confusion around these multitudes of editions of this book. It has been a hell of a process to just try to fix and preserve my writings while being targeted and working on infiltrated computers. I came to the conclusion that it can not be effectively done until I have the freedom to gain more understanding and use my heart to fix and explain old original posts, which contain many of my own mistakes as well as those imposed by those who target me, which is why I've decided to the Introduction, until I can pull it all together and make it better in one final edition.
    The blog part of this book is basically the same as what is left on the web, as of January 20, 2017, and is to preserve what is left of it until I am free to use my heart in a final edition that hopes be explained far better than this and previous ones.  I hope that, even in this sad state, it will help all of us to regain our Freedom. Download the pdf ; http://www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro2.pdf  ]

P.S. When I first posted this book; In the description of this book the word "not" was erased from the part which states that it "includes updates that are not in the others."  I caught the change and put the word back in but the fix was not transferred until I exposed it here. Hopefully this will be fixed soon, because it is important for people to know that this book contains new material that is best read before the other available editions.

P.S.S. (Update Jan 10 2017) I have been trying to ad more to this book and am being blocked in a public library computer. They appear to have also corrupted the file I had saved with this book in it.

 Previously posted Introduction book; www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro.pdf  and on Amazon' http://www.poeticpublications.com/bookramintro.pdf   and at; https://www.amazon.com/dp/1541097866/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1481900525&sr=8-1&keywords=Ramblings+of+a+Targeted+Individual

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Microwave Targeting Can Interfere With the Natural Aging Process

  The "aging" thing that they threatened appears to be happening through microwave targeting of my body in the past year or so, especially my skin.  Prior to this swing into making me look older they appeared to be doing the opposite - somehow slowing down the aging process. "Forever young" was the song they kept playing during this time. It seemed to be a ploy to lure me into enslavement where they claimed that they could keep me looking young. I refused to bite and told them that I do not mind aging. . .and then they swung into a projected dream, which showed spots all over a woman's skin and puppet license plates that portrayed "aging." This has been happening to me since then. It feels horrible that they can also technologically interfere with the way I look.

 I don't mind aging, but I want it to happen
naturally and not through technological targeting


P.S.S. Lot of heavy microwaving of my brain...etc., lately! Feel like my brain is clamped in a prison when it gets this bad. I feel numb. Aside from that I feel tired and discouraged and overwhelmed. Some days are better than others and some days are worse. Its a hell of a roller coaster ride, literally!


Tuesday, December 13, 2016

From the Heart of My Frustration

   There are a few things that I want to make very clear to everyone who has been questioning or assuming things. Please excuse possible bloops in this. I'm upset and am letting my tears and frustrations pound the computer keys.

1. I do not believe in the covert rescue and do not want it for myself, because I feel that it leads to enslavement. I feel that many who think they are free and safe are not really and will not find out until it is too late if things keep going the way they have been through the past few decades. So, please stop trying to force me into enslavement.

2. Regardless of what is in my infiltrated ramblings, which I have not had the freedom and information to properly fix, I do not want to go up against any level of my American government. . .no matter what has happened to me. I don't.
   When I look at the bigger picture I see that America, and all of its agencies and families and citizens, have been being targeted with aims for other forces to take over our country as well as the rest of humanity. They are victims too, especially of the technological mind control. And I cannot help but to feel for all of us and pray for our freedom to be fully and honestly restored to all of America as well as the rest of humanity.
   When I look at the smaller picture I feel scared and hurt and frustrated that any of this is even happening, especially when I look at the lives that have been being destroyed while covert wars rage around the globe and nobody acknowledges the targeting, especially the technological parts and the enslavement. I have a right to these feelings. It all hurts indescribably. Some of us (myself included) have been suffering through such grossly inhumane levels of covert and technological targeting that we cannot really want anything but for the hell to end as quickly as possible. But, no matter how hurt or angry I have felt, I do not want to blame any level of law enforcement (from local to the president) for what has been happening, because I feel that they are victims too and surely have their own types of struggles in this hell that has been infiltrating America as well as the rest of humanity. I just keep praying that it is getting better instead worse and have been waiting for clear, non-covert evidence of this. I am still waiting.
   More than anything I want America to fully and honestly stand up and regain its freedom, but sometimes I feel selfish when I put so much of my prayers into this, because there are other people and countries that have been being hurt and infiltrated and taken over as well. I feel for them too. This does not mean that I am against America or that I am a "globalist." I'm not. I actually have a deep and firm belief in the importance of countries and people retaining their independence, freedom and individuality. And sensing that America, and all that it has stood for, has been crumbling in the secret shadows of covert wars and technoogical mind control infiltrations is the most excruciating thing that I have ever felt. I, as well as many people whom I love, have been being hurt or destroyed or enslaved by the horrible holocaustal targetings. God help America. . .and the rest of humanity. Until world peace is gained no country is completely safe and free. I pray for that peace and for our freedom to quickly be attained. I wish that all aware and uncontrolled American and foreign forces would unite in aims to free America, as well as the rest of humanity, from all levels of covert targeting, especially the technological and pharmaceutical mind control.

3. I am deeply sorry for all mistakes and misunderstandings that are portrayed in my blog writings, including the alterations performed by those who target me. Its been a horrible battle to just TRY to preserve what is left of my writings so that I can later fix them. I have come to the conclusion that it cannot be effectively done on infiltrated computers in public places where I have often experienced covert harassment and radio waves interfering with the function of my brain. I have also not yet received clear and direct honest answers to questions that could help clarify many things. My writings are not always "politically correct," or even the way that I would naturally write them, because of the nature of the targeting and its effects on me and my writings. So, I beg you all to understand and excuse me and my writings until I can freely make them better.

4. The threat of being shoved into enslavement or framed appears to have again vamped up since I was told that my uncle died and since I finished the new "Introduction" to my Rambling of a Targeted Individual books, which aims to preserve newer posts. But perhaps this is a coincidence. I do go through a lot of rounds of this.

P.S. This blog is suddenly not sending copies of this post to my email address when I first posted it.